Though it’s still difficult to talk about, I wanted to share here that we found out on Wednesday that I have miscarried. While we wait for the physical eventualities, I am going to remain somewhat offline for a while.
Thanks for understanding.

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I don’t like to whine. I don’t want to complain. But this is where I need to be the real me, so here I go.
I am depressed. I am unhappy. I have no reason for either. I am afraid. Many little things cause me emotional distress. Things that do [...]

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Well, I got another flash of revelation from my Heavenly Father this evening. I asked in my last post what all this loitering in my weight meant. God’s letting me see how successful I am when I go it alone. You see, I’m a very, very stubborn girl. I don’t want [...]

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I don’t even know why I am posting. I want to have something to say, but my head is so full of the events of this week.
God is faithful. I am not.
I have been shaken. I have fallen. I am still standing, but only by the grace of my God.
He lifted [...]

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Let your unfailing love surround us, LORD, for our hope is in you alone. (Psalm 33:22)
I am being attacked. No, not physically, but emotionally and spiritually.
Where do I go? Who do I have?
I want to lean on friends, loved ones. I want to eat all the food that will give comfort. [...]

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Ok, how do you recover from complete and willful sin? That was my day and now I am sitting here not sure what to do. I am so frustrated with myself. I don’t know how many more times I can do this before my heart just crusts over and I’m stuck in [...]

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