Archive for May, 2007

One Thousand Gifts – Part 49

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  • 381. J5 in the swimming pool
  • 382. Holiday weekends
  • 383. Naptime on Saturdays
  • 384. Hearing J4 and J5 playing in the other room. (I know, this one has made frequent appearances in this list…it’s just my #1 favorite sound in the whole world.)
  • 385. Projects that improve the look and feel of our home.

I am…forgiven

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“I am forgiven all my sins and washed in the blood” TW 125

He is so rich in kindness and grace that he purchased our freedom with the blood of his Son and forgave our sins.
Ephesians 1:7

I am forgiven. If you’ve been reading my blog at all, you’ll see that I have been struggling with this concept. Forgiveness.

Since this (Christ’s crucifixion) happened in the past, it was for all my sins. Ever. Not only the ones that I committed before I realized that he forgave me, and then none after. It actually means ALL my sins, past, present and future are forgiven. Am I getting this right?

I think my struggles with forgiving others really requires me to focus more on the practice of accepting God’s forgiveness than it does working to let go of hurt from others. I think I have kept my self “on the hook” for all of my missteps, and therefore feel the need to make sure that no one else is let “off the hook” prematurely. And that is wrong. In fact, I think it ends up making it a never ending cycle. I don’t feel or acknowledge my forgiveness, so I don’t forgive others, so God can’t forgive me. (Matt. 6:14-15).

So, I guess it doesn’t matter what comes first. I’m here now. I am choosing to forgive (and therefore not “refusing to forgive”) those whom I have “kept record of wrongs” on. And that choice enables God to forgive me. And with that, I am forgiven. I may not feel super fresh or clean, but I am going to remind myself of the fact of my forgiven state as often as possible.

Also, there is a difference between feeling hurt again from something someone has done, and refusing to forgive. One is a unfortunate side effect of being human and being vulnerable, and the other is a choice. I am going to err on the side of sensitive today. And let God do the protecting and healing.

Am I Hungry?

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4 years ago
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Ok, so I really suck at blogging lately. I have thoughts I want to write about but then get sidetracked by one of the other billion or so things that are going on either in my head or in real life. Having a toddler will do that to you.

But the reason I am blogging right now is because Heidi inspired me to just write. I forget that it doesn’t have to be a full blown article with pictures and points. It doesn’t even have to be inspirational. Ha.

So, I’m just going to ramble for a while.

Today I decided to simplify my approach to food and eating. I will ask myself one simple question and it requires a simple “yes” or “no” answer. Am I hungry? If no, do not eat. If yes, eat.

It seems simple, doesn’t it. Almost too simple? Yeah. But how many times do I ask the question of myself but allow answers other than “yes” to mean yes?

Am I hungry? Well, sort of, I mean, I’m not full, so that sort of counts, right? (Real answer: No.)

Am I hungry? It’s dinner time and my family is assembled and the food is ready, so I’m ready to eat. (Real answer: No.)

Am I hungry? I am finally getting some me time – I want to do something that will make me feel good, relaxed, pampered, unstressed. (Real answer: No.)

So, I leave myself (and anyone else who happens to be reading) with the following:

Simply let your ‘Yes’ be ‘Yes,’ and your ‘No,’ ‘No’; anything beyond this comes from the evil one.
Matthew 5:37

The Little Things

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Ann, over at Holy Experience wrote a wonderful post today that I hope you take the time to read.

I am…God’s child

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“I am God’s child for I am born again of the incorruptible seed of the Word of God which lives and abides forever.” TW p125

For you have been born again, but not to a life that will quickly end. Your new life will last forever because it comes from the eternal, living word of God.
1 Peter 1:23

Well, to be honest, this one is starting out a little dry for me. I think I need to read some of the context.

Verse 21 says, “Through Christ you have come to trust in God. And you have placed your faith and hope in God because he raised Christ from the dead and gave him great glory.”

Christ is the connect to God. It is my acceptance of the gift of Christ’s death that puts this all in to action. It’s honestly hard for me to read and truly *feel* anything about being born again, as I was raised “in the church” and so I don’t have a powerful conversion experience, or any one event or timeline that shows the “before Christ” and “after Christ” Lundie.

That doesn’t mean I am excluded. It does not mean I am not born again. It just means I will need to study and understand and contemplate it more, I think. I do believe in Christ and what he did to save me. I have been given a new life. I want to be converted to this new being. I know that I already *am* this new being, but I want my outsides to reflect it as well.

My new life has its source in the Word of God, so the more I am in it, the more my new being will be fed.

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